Goodbye

I have to say goodbye
It's just for the best
No it's not a lie
I think we should just let this whole issue go to rest

I can feel you pulling away
I feel it emotionally and physically
That's why I say all the time
Just to say goodbye to me

One minuet I feel like Iam wrong
The next I feel I am right
In my choices of saying goodbye to you
But I really am not sure
I am just lost in my life
Like in a box and I can't get out
I need to solve some problems
And think things through

My mom says all the time how lucky you are to have me
And how I pick you over other guys that like me and all these other things
I mean if i was you I would feel soo lucky
But since you never seen them it just might be sucky
I just know If I was you and I sawl them I'd feel so good inside
Like I was everything
But that's you not me

I on't know what happend
Something VERY strange
Something I deffintly can't explain
It's to hard, way to hard to tell about

It's like when something goes wrong you wanna make it all better again
I tried that all the other times
And now I've lost my best friend
This time I can't do anything to fix it

He wasn't just a best friend
He was better than that
He was the one and only love of my life
The guy I've looked for all these years
And when I found him I KNEW! he was the one
To hold on to all my life!
And now he's away
Now all I have is tears to show my pain

His soft tender touch
Is something i cherish soo much
Those warm soft hands
Holding me tight
Is the Best feeling in my sight


I always knew that as long as I had him I'd be okay
But now I don't have him anymore he's gone away
Not for a couple of weeks
But for a long LONG time

As i sit and just think about him I smile
Gives me enough energy to make me want to run the mile
When I hear his name I think about him or anything that has to do with him
It makes me happier then ever before

Everywhere I go he's in my thoughts
He never leaves them
No matter what I am doing he's there within my heart

As I lay in bed at night
I wish to hold him tight
And have him in sight
But I can't

But when I hold my bunny tight
I will be wishing it was you and me at night
All warm and cuddley
The thought of you makes me so secure
Makes me never want to worry again
My heart and my thoughts will be wishing that bunny was you
Just like they alwayd do

Something tells me I shouldn't say goodbye
But then another part of me is just screaming it
I just make things worse for
You don't need me
If anyone needs anyone it's me needing you

John please remember you'll always be the one
Always there in my thoughts
And with every single heartbeat that I give will be the more my love grows for you
And once I die I won't stop loving you it will still grow
My heart won't be beating but I'll still have a soul to show

Well I must say goodbye for now
Sometime in the future we'll be get together
But I don't know how
It will all fall in place
When we are older and more mature

Well maybe by then you will have lost interest
But I never will
Well, who knows what will happen
Only god

I think we should let go for now
So iam not causing problems in yoru family and in your life
Iam feeling sharp pains now just like a knife
It's so hard saying that I think we should let go
But I trully think it's only for the best
That we just put this to rest

It's gonna kill me
The pain is going through me
I feel it day and day
It grows stronger
Along with the love
it grows and GROWS and GROWS and GROWS


But I don't know what to do
I just can't LOSE YOU!
Feel alone all by myself
In my own world in a bubble of my own

Here I sit in the state of confustion
All along in a different life
I feel lost just like a illusion
And it hurts just like a kinfe

Ntohing will help me
But us being together
But that won't happen
And everything being great
The way it was way way back

Well I must go for now
I have no more to say
But one last thing
I LOVE YOU MORE EACH DAY!