You called me yesterday to basically say
that you care for me but that your
just not in love, at least not with me.
Immediately I pretended to be feeling the
same way, and I led you to believe that I was ok.
To just walk away from the one thing that's
very sacred to me.
Well, I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
and I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you.
Underneath the disguise of the smile that I wear I am
gradually dying inside.
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly because I don't
want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering.
So I wear my disguise until I go home and turn off my light
and then I breakdown and cry.
So what do you do when somebody your devoted to suddenly just
stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of
the pain that rejection is putting me through?
Do you say "I will survive?"
Or do you lash out and say "Hos dare you leave me this way"?
I just held out with hope that you will stay, but you slipped away.